The Breakup

I have realized it is time to breakup with my best friend, Coffee or at least take some time off. This is going to be tough but it is time for me to get more Sleep. I need it and miss it. Here are my letters to my two closest friends.





Dear Sleep,

Hello? How have you been? I am doing ok, I know we have been very distant lately but things would be much better if you were here. I miss you terribly and would love for you to come visit, preferably between the hours of 10pm-10am. I sincerely believe we could be close again although I understand my 3 month old and 7 year old get in the way of our relationship but in time, I think you could be their friend too. You just have to give it a chance, they really quite likable. Another thing, just because I like Coffee does not mean that I like you any less. I feel like we could all get along if we try. Ok, well Sleep, please visit me more often, I really need you to get me through the day, well think it over and please consider giving me another chance.





Dear Coffee,

Hello my friend, how are you? I’m doing ok. Look, I am just going to say this bluntly. We need to spend some time apart. Its not you, its me. I appreciate all that you have done for me and I don’t know how I could have gotten through the last couple months without you. You lifted me up when I was tired and when I thought I could not last another minute you woke me up. Now the baby is starting to snooze at night more and now it is time for me to get back together with Sleep. We can have a healthy balance right? Do not worry, I still need you, just not as often as before.  Don’t be mad at Sleep, its just that…I need it more then you. You understand right? Ok, well I’ll drink you when I drink you, Peace.




Wish me luck everyone!


The First Day of Forever

Today was my only child’s first day of 4 yr old preschool. As I kissed her goodbye and told her to “Have a great day!” I couldn’t help but tear up. My four year old daughter simply said “You don’t have to hold my hand mom, ok.” That’s when it hit me…she is not a baby anymore! I watched her run off with the other curious children not glancing back at me once. I turned around and walked away wondering, what if she doesn’t listen? what if she gets into trouble? What if I didn’t do a good enough job teaching her and she isn’t ready? Being a single mom, I wonder if I can do everything I m supposed to as parent and I learned today, all I can do is hope for the best as she becomes more and more independent. My daughter is a bright kid that is well behaved and I just have to trust that she and I can do this mother-daughter thing successfully. Today is the start of a new life for my daughter as she is a “Big Girl” –A Proud Mom